想念

唉……
17 天没真正练剑了……
都不知道手有没有硬掉……
腕花……
刺剑……
云剑……
挂剑……
好想念……
TT

焚

是憔悴
是凄美
是遗憾
是后悔
焚了那段坎坷
一切已经结束了
现在
我只想看着你

思

你的轮廓
你的笑容
你的眼神
挥之不去地
在我的脑海中盘旋
主宰我的情绪
牵动我的心……

虽然前一秒我们才见面，
但在下一秒，
我又开始思念你……
真得很奇妙……
原来……
我每一刻都在思念你。

我很讨厌她！

考完试了……
爽……
最后一科sivik……
是我考到最high的一科……
subjective几乎完全不会做……
都不懂它在讲什么……
不懂那个成绩会是怎样……
哈哈~

还有啊……
那天的监考老师……
也就是我最讨厌的老师……
就是我们的pjk老师啦……
他监考……
我们班就吵到鬼这样……
简直就不像在考试……
相信很多同学都趁机作弊……
可是都没有用的……
因为基本上全班都不会做……
所以咯……哈哈~

讲回那个老师……
很废的咯他……
他的眼神很恐怖的……
记得那天我在pjk节练武术的时候……
他看着我的眼神，
用四个字形容：毛骨悚然……
好像在对我放电一样……
我知道有些时候我很帅……
可是你不用那么恐怖的……
我也不会对你有兴趣的……

还有一次啊……
在bilik sukan……
他的钥匙不懂怎样跌进那个橱后面……
他就在那边喊：“tolong!tolong!!"
原本不像理他的……
但他真的吵到够够力……
算了……我投降……
我帮你拿就是了……
很废的咯他……
要人家帮忙又不会好好讲 ……
在那边叫到傻这样……
笑……

所以……
很讨厌她就是了！ ><|||

thanks ^^

hmm..
today suddenly felt i'm so stupid.. zzz
normally if got exam,
then don't have ko-ko..
but dunno why today morning i went school 4 the olahraga training.

when i reach there,
1 people also i can't see at the canteen..
suddenly i realize 2 things:
1. i''m so stupid!
2. other people so clever.. TT
but a bit lucky also..
i got bring the chinese workbook to read xD
then it won't b so bored xD

when i finish reading..
still haven't reach 9.00a.m ...
nvm lar..
i wanna try my luck xD
then suddenly ming fei came..
he pjk but nothing 2 do..
we keng gai lo..
better than nothing 2 do...

then suddenly also..
minghui came!! aww i love her xD (i'm not less lar)
she said her mom got meeting..
nobody at home so she need 2 come early...
then continue keng lo..

about 10:00..
somebody ponteng n came down...
say wanna teman ming fei...
then ming fei said he is very touched xD
but thanks yah ^^
i'm really happy when u r around ..
thanks 4 your accompany =D

you...

it has been quite a long time..
when i tried to forget you..
i tried to forget everything about you in my life..
i tried to hate you..
i tried to make you disappear in my life..
especially in my mind..
i thought i was success..
but till yesterday only i know..
i have failed in everything..

yesterday only i realize..
i just escape from thinking anything about you..
but u never disappear in my mind..
i proved it yesterday...
luckily we both still not too late..
or else everything i was thinking won't become the truth..
how lucky i am ^^

my decision become vacillate because of you..
and then..
i give up..
you are the winner ^^

till now i still can't believe that's true..
not can't believe...
still haven't adapt..
the way you call me..
but soon will ^^
i believe..

really happy about it ^^
hope we won't disappoint each other ^^

first time being a coach and assistant

my bro got fever already TT (not H1N1)
actually 2day he got class at SJK(C)Kepong 1..
but he can't make it because of the stupid fever...
so..
i go replace him...

when i reach there,
it's 8:02a.m...
(1st time being a coach oso late..)
but never mind actually..
coz only 2 ppl came after i reach there..
so wait 4 more ppl come first lo..
when 8:05a.m..
(although not many people) i start the class..

first give them warm up.
but damn..
most of them also not serious..
never mind..
i'm just replacement..
next week when coach come they can die already..
after that do kickings lo..
same..
nothing special .. not serious also..
just like when coach there teaching..

next..
i lead them to do some revision..
damn they forgot already..
i'm not very familiar though..
lucky i still remember the ending there..
but the names all i don't know ><

then after that i went sinar bintang at 10:30a'm..
replacing my bro as an assistant..
when the beginning..
they do kickings..
i help coach to see and correct their mistakes..
some of them do very fast..
they reach the end before i correct their mistakes...==|||
what they rush for?
aeroplane? or..
their wedding? lolz xD

when xuanfeng..
a guy don't really know how to do it..
coach ask me to teach him beside..
he told me that i need patient teaching him..
when i turn around and look at him..
he already lie on the floor...
==||| damn zadao...
this time i really 100% understand what coach means..
kk never mind..
i'll teach him patiently..

after teaching him about 10 minutes..
coach wanna see..
when he practice is ok..
but don't know why when coach wanna see..
he can't do it again..
then coach just say "practice again" n continue teaching other ppl..
k.. i continue mine..
actually i just can tell him how to do it..
the feeling he need to find himself.
then i just stand beside and watch him..
5 minutes later..
coach come and see again..
he want him to show it..
1st time correct!
coach say "again"..
2nd time he think carefully b4 he move..
well done!
"one more time"
"again??"
"ya"
3rd time he also done it well!
"ok.. come practice together with them here"
"yay..!" lol xD

after kickings and jumpings..
they practice san duan changquan and the basics..
my coach handle the san duan changquan's part..
i take the basics..
when i lead them finish their revision,
i teach them ji ben changquan..
nothing special..
just kek shui coz coach suddenly changed a complicated(a bit only actually) move and become easier a bit..
not really like that version..
but really become easy a bit...

in the end..
gave a salute and say good bye xD
first time being a coach and assistant...
quite fun actually xD

sudden thought

everything u doing now will become your memories...
so..
do whatever u think is right
whatever is good for your future...
so u won't regret in your future...

i have done many things that i'm regretting now..
i know it's useless for now..
so i have to be more careful before i decided 2 do anything..
even b4 saying a word..
we can't change things that happened..
we just can work hard and create our own future..
it's very easy..
just do what should we do now..

many things had prepared for us..
but many people don't know how to cherish..
it's very disappointing..
we should realize what we should do..
what should not...
if we don't..
we sure will disappoint ourselves in coming days,
weeks,
month,
or even year...

stop leaving regretful things in your path of your life..
wake up to reality earlier..
you will earn more in your future...

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愧疚

唉……
你走过的岁月，
有多长了呢？
你身上已有无数的痕迹，
我想这一路走来，
你已经经历过不少别人的喜怒哀乐吧……
我是其中一个在你生命中擦肩而过的人，
我永远不会是你生命中的主角，
当然，我哪有那个资格？

你将再度离开我……
第一次遇见你，
第一次那么拼命，
第一次那么认真，
第一次无怨无悔的把自己弄伤，
第一次拿下武术金牌，
第一次的演出，
好多好多的第一次，
都是在你和我相伴的时候，
所留给我的经验，
给我的回忆……
这点点滴滴，
都要感谢你一路来的陪伴……

2009年7月27日，
你因为我在身上划了一道疤痕……
那是一道怎么也抹不去的疤痕……
甚至连我自己都不知道这道疤痕是怎么形成的……
我只知道，都是因为我……
你在我身边，
我却无意间让你受到这种伤害……
我不能再留住你了……
但是……
我真的应该对你负些责任……
在我心里，真得很愧疚……
我能够做的有什么？
我也不能做任何决定，
毕竟我没有这个权力……

如果能够为你做些什么的话，
也许我会好过一点……
但……
我真的不知道我能够做的有什么……
我得到的指示，
只有‘不用管它’……
我知道，他只是装作不介意，
他的心里在想什么，我不知道。
但我知道他一定相当介意……
他越是装作不介意，
我越是愧疚……
唉……
这次真的是无能为力了……
我能够做的有什么呢？

他对我真的是太好了……
我不知道我应该怎么报答他……
唉……
还是那一个问题……
我能够做的有什么呢？